If it’s not the trauma what is it?

I hear their voices - you’re not as broken as you think you are Roselle.

Yet ironically this obsession with fixing myself, this focus on it, this being stuck, if it’s not the trauma that broke them then I am just wired wrong.

I never saw until writing that, that the part missing is that I can do something about it. I have control.

That is the other option. It is just what it is and if I don’t like it then I can change it.

Mindblowing.