Wait, has my alarm gone off?

Was it the lack of sleep?

Was it because I had a few drinks last night?

Was it because this was how they knew how to wake me up so that I didn’t miss the sunrise this morning?

Not sure. Society tells us it’s one (or both) of the first two. My new way of seeing the world opens up the possiblity of the third.

They didn’t tell me why.

But they were going full force this morning. Replaying conversations from last night - but now instead of them being advice that offered hope they were messages that signaled that I can’t do this. I can’t make it. They were replays of stories about why I’ve failed and will continue to fail.

But wow do they wake up me with force.