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Anger, Shame & Hope
A mish-mash of what goes on inside my #busybrain. Welcome to a space I’ve created to befriend my anger and shame. All in the hope of living a life of joy and pleasure.
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Could we put a label on it?
There is something about the rise and fall.
The feeling good. Then shutting down.
It's less than before.
The difference between the two.
But it is still there.
And the shame about needing to be 'on the go' to be able to do things. To feel things. To be focused.
But I feel as thought I am steering down the barrel of a familiar situation.
Things put off until last minute.
Before? After? Now?
Which is interesting because if I am not wanting to go back to who I was then then I am wanting to become some idealised version of me in the future.
There is no sense of now.
Wanting to change in IFS?
Wanting to change in IFS?
Where does wanting to change fit in IFS?
So far I am not satisfied with how IFS explains ‘every daylife’.
“We both grew up in families where no one asked directly for what they wanted or needed. We learned to use manipulation and indirectness to get others to give us what we wanted.”