ARGH!

I noticed the shift in my body.

It feels different.

I tell myself it’s all in my head.

A part of me tells me not to do anything for it - it worries about the long terms effect. It worries we won’t solve the real issue.

That sets off another part which worries that we will be like this FOREVER. Permenantly held back. Unable to live the life we want.

We’ve done this dance many many times before.

There is also the part that is angry at me that we don’t trust our knowing of our body.

—->sometimes when I write these I think them faster than I can write. My parts feel heard and then it’s like I can’t access them any more.<—-

The intensity in my chest.

It’s like when this shift happens it’s a free for all. All the thoughts come in. In no coherent order.