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Anger, Shame & Hope
A mish-mash of what goes on inside my #busybrain. Welcome to a space I’ve created to befriend my anger and shame. All in the hope of living a life of joy and pleasure.
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All the thoughts. None of the sleep.
And now none of the words.
It was coming thick and fast - when I wanted to sleep. The brain was active. I also knew the second I got up to write it would go.
……
I can sleep now.
I’m trying to write.
I’m trying to write.
Why does it not flow? Why do I keep getting stuck? Blank.
I know that I have this in me. I wouldn’t have got this far if I didn’t. But why can’t I access it now?
Whose concerned? Whose worried about what?
They can pull me out so well. Blank. Not even numb. Not even distracted. Just simply blank.
“We both grew up in families where no one asked directly for what they wanted or needed. We learned to use manipulation and indirectness to get others to give us what we wanted.”