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Anger, Shame & Hope
A mish-mash of what goes on inside my #busybrain. Welcome to a space I’ve created to befriend my anger and shame. All in the hope of living a life of joy and pleasure.
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90 Days of Pleasure - Day 3
So I think this is me giving myself grace that it’s ok for it to be hard to connect to pleasure.
Biologically it’s not a thing. …
You have to show up for it to show up
It all got too much so I hid.
And I needed this time to hide out.
To rest, recover and start to unpack a few things at time.
In my own pace.
I was able to uncover a lot. Make sense of a lot.
But those layers are done for now.
The next layers require me to go out there.
I’m really angry today.
Anger wasn’t allowed for me growing up.
Unless it was about injustice.
Fight for justice. Fight for what is right.
But angry at you?
Angry at how things had gone?
Nope. None of that was allowed.
What did I have to be angry about?
“We both grew up in families where no one asked directly for what they wanted or needed. We learned to use manipulation and indirectness to get others to give us what we wanted.”